Daring To Hope

index55I referred myself to mind (click link to read all about it, this was Thursday and today it was my telephone assessment.

I had to fill in quite an intensive questionnaire, for sections covering all areas of my mental health, that was challenging, because it’s hard to know how to score the severity of your symptoms, I’m hardly impartial, the measure is quite small, I hoped I’d be able to explain in more detail when the assessor rang.

Promptly at 2.30 the phone rand, with a very pleasant-sounding lady at the other end who quickly explained that the assessment to gauge my mental state but also for them to get as full a picture as possible so they could offer the appropriate support.

As I’d already written out all my scores, we went through portion quickly, we then went back to the start and began to go through each question in detail, even though this was to last 45 mins I didn’t feel rushed and was able to give thorough answers to her questions.

We talked a little about my upbringing work, life presently what support systems I have place did I have any coping mechanisms that I use, I told her about this blog and how much it did help and the support from the community.

We also talked about suicide and self harm, although I’ve had some ideation and did make an unsuccessful attempt several years ago, now it just took the form of not wanting to wake up, she did ask about anger which of course I do get quite angry sometimes, but have a temper that I can control and others aren’t at a risk from me.

I talked at length about homelessness, and explained my current living situation and how desperate it had all got and felt that this was the last stop before I’d end up sleeping rough, I didn’t even cry, my voice seemed to come from a long way, I’ve told this tale so many times, sometimes it’s hard to believe this is happening to me.


She asked many questions about this, and what kind of support I was getting to at the very least get some attention, I explained that I don’t fit the criteria I’m deemed not vulnerable enough, she expressed concerns about this and noted it all down, she even apologised that I was in this situation, which was surprising as it wasn’t her doing, but I recognised the compassion there, and it was a reaction from one human to another that they felt empathy, to be honest that made my heart skip a beat.

Just on the answers given she said the results show depression and a high level of anxiety, several therapies were named

Over the phone

one to one


I chose on to one(CBT) feeling it would be the best for me, there is a waiting list 4-6 weeks however an appointment would probably come up sooner.

As an urgent case I’ve been allocated a support worker to assist with my housing issues, debt management, benefits, and they will work with me until it has been resolved, as by having this assessment and the streets looming I’m now considered vulnerable.

Two things happened in quick succession, I got my feedback plus several detailed reading material, plus the letter of referral for therapy plus support telephone numbers, by email

Second I had a phone call from the support team for housing who gave me an option to try tomorrow so I’ll register with this new agency, and my support worker will be in contact by tomorrow as I’m an urgent case.

So there is a glimmer a long way to go yet, I liked the way the way they put measure into place quickly and the responses were sooner and not later, if I’d gone through the NHS it’d be weeks before I would have heard anything.

I might turn that corner after all.

Sorry this all seems a bit patchy I’m a bit out of it tonight, side effects still giving some problems.


About therabbitholez

I returned to this blog in September 2014, after a 2 year absence, due to depressive illness and homelessness. This journey charts the rocky road to recovery and my feelings about it, and getting a home together after losing everything, this too has been a rocky rocky, both things connected on many levels, but separate at the same time. If you want to know more please read my blog:) and comment on any blog you like I enjoy the interaction, and belong to a great community on here. Thanks for reading.:)
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18 Responses to Daring To Hope

  1. operahell says:

    *hugs* keep on keeping on! It’s not easy jumping through these hoops but I think you are on the right path. ❤

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  2. Cat says:

    This is great news and iam impressed by their efficiency. It makes all the difference when we feel listened to and supported. It really sounds like things are about to finally move forward. Soooo pleased. As for the meds, they do take a bit of getting used to.

    My fingers and toes are crossed for you 🙆 m


  3. Gale Wright says:

    I was hoping it would work out like this!!!! I like their website and I like the way they spoke to you. They seem to have a common sense approach and it sounds dignified and respectful.

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  4. breakdownchick says:

    So glad it all went well!! I was on Zoloft before,,,it will take a few weeks for your body to adjust. I was on it for a very long time and felt it helped. I am wishing you luck and love in all the steps you are taking. (((HUGS))

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  5. Tessa says:

    A glimmer is better than you have been getting. I think it sounds like you might get help before you have to sleep rough hopefully with the winter coming on. Hugs!

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  6. JC says:

    Great news! No need to apologize, side effects suck! Just happy for you.

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  7. I am so, so pleased that you made the leap and rang them and were brave enough to be honest- I hope the therapy helps and this can be the start of a better time for you. I’m so sorry you have to go through this all, it’s so unfair and you don’t deserve it at all. But, brighter things will come! We just have to keep fighting eh? Also I’ve done CBT and found it really helpful if that’s any consolation! I hope it all works out for you, always here and good luck with everything xxx

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    • I hope ful for better times ahead, now that I have support, I was struggling to be honest and it’s great that people not only listen and understand, but treating you with respect which makes all the the difference.

      Thank you for your kind comment 🙂 x


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