I was at a christening today and what a joyous occasion it was, and being somewhat involved in the organisation of the day, I was especially pleased, we ate drank and were very merry, not to forget the star of the show baby N who smiled and gurgled throughout.
The christening obviously held in a church brought me to the matter of faith, luckily we were allowed to choose if we wanted to continue going to church, my brother and I chose not to, though he has since become a born again christian and is happy with his choice and has faith.
Faith there is that word again and today I wondered as i don’t seem to have this particular faith I wondered would I burst into flames upon entering sacred ground, I didn’t remembering belatedly my late mothers words that she had me christened therefore I would always have protection and had faith that I would someday return to the fold.
I’m not going to get into the religious debate, however as I listened to the service today I wondered did I actually have faith or simply what did I strongly believe in that would give me that additional layer or higher level of faith.
Well my beliefs over the last couple of years have been tested in more ways than I care to remember, but remember them I do because I have learned that shit can happen to anyone and it has no filter, and it’s more about how you deal with it, when you are ready to deal with disasters that happen in our lives there is no magic button , and often you have to retreat deep within yourself before you can emerge on the other side.
I’ve always had my own set of truths that I have tried to live by, not that it always works and often have to adapt my thinking to overcome a situation and they are my truths in the way I wish to lead my life, I don’t ask others to accept them as I try not to judge their life principles, though I question often but more as a way to understand where they are coming from.
So as I sat there today listening, I began to think of the church in another way well this particular church who had both male and female vicars they reach out daily to the community and provide quite an organic service to the people they serve, and it wasn’t done in a preachy way, very interactive, entertaining but with a clear message that they were there if and when needed all were welcome.
As to my own faith I don’t think church is for me, however I can live my life with honour, integrity and honesty, compassion, humanity, humility and learned wisdom and I have faith in me to see each day through living and breathing my truths.